Until members of my family stop reading my journal, I am reverting back to my old blog. If I find out that these unwanted readers followed me over, my entire journal will be made friends-only. Which will really piss me off.

If anyone wants to know where it is, comment or email me, an 99% chance I'll tell you. It's my old lj, so you might already know where it is. Boards should be updated soon. You should be able to look on some people's friends lists for it and figure out who I am.

You just what, Juli?

My sister just came in and gave me a lecture about what I am going to do with my life. She was all, "People like you end up doing nothing." Gee thanks, sis, I love you too.

I quoted the Book of Mormon at her as a joke, "eat, drink, and be merry, for tomorrow we die," from a part that talks about what certain types of 'bad' people say. "People like that end up with horrible live, that produce nothing," "You need to do something better with your life than reading all the time," she says.

I'm sorry Juli, but not everyone has friends that always want to go out and do something. Not everyone likes scrapbooking, crocheting, cooking. Not everyone has something else to do that they like other than what they are already doing!

Why fix what isn't broken?

She brought up the point that I procrastinate, and that my reading helps me with that. What else could I do that I wouldn't be able to procrastinate with?! Maybe you have a skewed vision of time, Juli, but everything you do takes it. Procrastination has absolutely nothing to do with what I do, and everything to do with when I do it, so don't you dare attack my hobbies on such an insane front.

Maybe you are just stupid. I don't know, because it is seriously odd that you wouldn't realize that I do things other than read on my computer, especially since I have told you multiple stories about my online friends, you've seen my dolls, and you've seen my websites. It does not add up. You have a very selective memory.

Anyway.

I got the most interesting email the other day from an old friend. At first, I was all for it, it seemed completely true. I couldn't wait to send it to other people, and see if they agreed. Here's part of it (the whole thing is too long to put here, but I'll send it to you if you want):

Christians are just sick and tired of turning the other cheek while our courts strip us of all our rights. Our parents and grandparents taught us to pray before eating, to pray before we go to sleep. Our Bible tells us just to pray without ceasing. Now a handful of people and their lawyers are telling us to cease praying.

God, help us. And if that last sentence offends you, well, just sue me. The silent majority has been silent too long. It's time we let that one or two who scream loud enough to be heard, that the vast majority don't care what they want. It is time the majority rules. It's time we tell them, you don't have to pray, you don't have to say the Pledge of Allegiance, you don't have to believe in God or attend services that honour Him. That is your right, and we will honour your right, but by golly you are no longer going to take our rights away. We are fighting back.

I read it again. All of a sudden I thought, wtf? This entire email is talking about how atheists and non-Christians are taking away the rights of the so-called "silent majority." Faugh!

We aren't Jerusalem, Baghdad, or China. The fact is that we are North America, the United States and Canada, and as long as we say that we are free countries, we cannot force people to do things or not do things just because of our beliefs. It is extremely hypocritical to demand that Christians be allowed to pray at football games, yet not allow gay marriages, US citizen who wrote the forward. At least Canada is catching on here. You don't have to participate in the marriage. You can call your lawyer all you want. But to say that, just because it's different, it's wrong, and to force others to live by your warped definition of 'right' is wrong in itself. One of the cornerstones of the Christian faith is that men have free will, free will that they were given by God during premortal life, and that no one has the right to take it away.

You say you want to pray at games? Pray away. But don't do the same wrong to others that has been done to you.

..When you're fast asleep..

I just had the weirdest dream. I (a skinnier, prettier me, but still I looked generally the same) was in this small castle near Paris, in my room, when I decided to go look at all the other bedrooms. So I snuck across the hallway and up the stairs, as silent as possible so my mom (who isn't my RL mom) didn't hear me. When I got to the first door in that hallway, I tried to open it, but it was locked. So I pulled really hard, fiddled with it, and it opened right up. The locks were too old to keep much out.

When I entered, I didn't really see anything but the dresser. I walked straight to it, opened a drawer, and removed the cutest pair of dark blue-green, tight-fitted jeans I'd ever seen in my life. I ran out of the room and back to mine, where I changed into them immediately.

Once the awe wore off, I was bored again. So I got on my computer and went to some travel website. Oddly enough, they had a section called "Paris Trip of the Day." I clicked on it, and was really excited to see that it started pretty close to my new castle-house-thing. I decided to take the map of the trip outside with me, because it was getting a bit stifling in my room.

So I'm outside. For some reason I can't remember right now, I decided that the best way to remember the map of the trip would be to write it on my pants. I was drawing the map on my pants when I realized that I made a mistake. I freaked out and started rubbing my pants really hard and fast where I made the mistake, and, to my surprise, the map started rubbing off. I rubbed the whole thing off, thinking that maybe my pants weren't the best place to have a map.

I head inside, to hopefully return the pants to that room before my mom finds out I took them, but as soon as I started climbing the staircase to the second floor, where my room is, my mom came over and asked me if I was happier about the move now that I'd seen outside. I said something to her, to try to get her to leave me alone, I don't know what, but she kept following me anyways, all the way up to my room, where she stood in the doorway while I sat on my bed.

That's when my sister woke me up. Grr. It was a really interesting dream, too.

Adjective. Causing or tending to cause sadness or depression of mind or spirit.

The end of school today was the opposite of the rise of my spirit yesterday during yoga. I should have been feeling wonderful, excited that school was out for a long weekend, but I was feeling dismal, depressed, pensive.

In French today, my last class, we had to move seats again.. but this time, we weren't allowed to sit next to the same people. I was so sad.. Lawrence and I sat together a couple chairs down from where we sat before, but Axel and Travis sat all the way across the room. If that wasn't bad enough, Beth and Kenna came over to sit next to us, and so did Martin (for today.. his best friend in the class, Devin, was absent), and they had this really long and boring (to me) conversation about "the club," for the entire period. Apparently, Beth and one of our friends, Megan, created "the club" in eighth grade for girls who had never been kissed and never had a boyfriend, but now they are both disqualified, so Kenna is the acting president. Their entire conversation was about how far they had gone, how many others they knew of that had gone that far, etc. Because they were almost always talking, Lawrence wasn't paying attention to the speaking activity we were doing, so we barely got it finished, and he kept snapping at me.

I missed Axel and Travis so much today. We always had these random conversations that would switch to other topics many times throughout the period. And Axel knew so much about me it was scary sometimes. XD ;.; Travis never let me down, always reminded me of things that I forgot, was so funny. Neither of them thought they knew a lot about French when they were both so smart, I couldn't believe that they thought that.

I'm talking about them like they're dead. But honestly, I don't see them if it's not in French, because we are all in different grades.

I just hope we can sit together again before the year ends, and that we are all in the same French class next year. I feel like I've lost part of my soul..

For youth group today, we invited our moms to go with us to do some yoga at a local women's fitness center. It was so relaxing. I want to go back to buy a tape and a mat now, so I can do it without going to the center. It would be a really nice way to get in shape, since it isn't all push-ups, sit-ups, pull-ups, etc, but rather stretching, breathing, and calming yourself. Plus, with what my schedule for next school year looks like so far, I'll need a good de-stresser.

At the moment, these are the courses I'm taking in my junior year in high school:

1. IB English 1-2
2. IB History of the Americas 1-2
3. IB Math Methods Precalculus 1-2
4. IB Biology
5. French 5-6, IB
6. Web Design 2 & Graphic Design 1
7. IB Art Studies (full-year 7th period class.. meaing, after normal school hours)

My alternate subject, in place of Web D 2 and Graphic D 1 if I can't get in for some reason, is full-year IB Psychology (SL).
Pretty scary.. especially biology and math. The higher up I get in these two classes, the more nervous I am about them. It takes me too long for my comfort to catch on to things in math, which is still pretty fast compared to other students in my classes, but not fast enough for me. They aren't my strong points, in my opinion.. I'm much stronger in History, English, and French.

Well.. that's really it. I should be getting to bed, but I don't feel like it. XD I am a major night owl.. probably too much of one.

At 9:06 am this morning, while in second period, I wrote this..

I am so bored right now. I'm in Web Design 1, where we are finishing out autobiography pages. Pages which I've been finished with for weeks. It is so monotonous now. I can't wait until we are done with this so I can learn how to use the Macromedia products. I've always wanted to learn how to use them, especially Fireworks, but I don't own them and they take too long to download. If I really like them, I'll ask my dad to get the MX versions from one of his friends for me.. someone's bound to have them and not mind sharing.

Anyway. Not much else to say, really. I think my doll binge is over, I didn't make one yesterday. I really like Amy, the first one I made on Shane's base, so I think I kind of subconciously quit while I was ahead. XD

Yeah. Leaving now. Amanda needs help with her frames. <_< Frames need to rot in hell. Yesssh.

"To feel you must be senseless,
To win, be defenseless.
To be saintly you must sin
And to finish you begin."
--"First and Last" by Myth and Legend on FFnet

I am completely in love with that poem. It's exactly what I mean by 'a world characterized by contradictions,' the main idea behind my previous layout. Also, it brings in a sort of 'live and learn' element that fits me to a T.
Well, I just wanted to post that poem. I just can't get over how much I like it; it's been rattling around in my head all day.

Actually, since I'm here, I might as well mention that I have no homework! Woot! We only had to study for hist, I finished my math during lunch and chem, I'd already read the assigned pages in Sophie's World by Jostein Gaarder for eng, and we have forever to do our partner project in french. ^-^ I can't believe it! I thought I wouldn't get a homework-free weekend until school was over, and here I am, sitting around, worrying about absolutely nothing school related!

Ah. Right now, thinking about having no homework, reciting "First and Last" in my head, and listening to Toxic yet again, I am feeling extremely content.

This morning before school, Lexi and I were talking to Amanda about how tired we were. (Both of us stayed up until three doing our essays for IB History.) Amanda started going on about how insane we were, that she went to bed at midnight last night, and how we were going to die because of IB. XD It was hilarious.

So, later, I got to my Web Design 1 class and started working on my autobiography. All of a sudden I had the coolest thought: All he cares about are the codes. He doesn't care what we actually have for content, as long as it's in accordance with the layout, so I can put whatever I bloody well please into my autobiography.

The first thing I though to put in there? A death date. It's To Be Announced. How did I die? Death by IB. Here's what I put:

IB spreads its posion from the mind into the rest of the body more and more each hour, and one day, it will take my life. It will take my life like it has taken the lives of so many other brave, kind, procrastinating souls who have come and gone before me. I salute you, friends, comrades, mentors. You will live on in the hearts of your posterity.

That has got to be the coolest thing I have ever written! XD

In other news, the layout is once again different. If you've come here by way of SPS, you may have seen it already, but otherwise it should be new. I ditched the wide version of the same layout for this thinner version. Tell me what you think, if you think anything about it at all. ;)

My brother and I are about to watch Cast Away. I love this movie.
Actually, I've only seen it once, in the theater, but I really did like it. XD

Anyway. New layout! I'm sure practically no one reads this, but I do every once in awhile XD so I like changing it every once in awhile. Well.. the main reason was because I was sick of all those blues. XD Browns are much better. /nod

If anyone's out there, tell me what you think.. comments, tagboard, email, whatever. :)